mediocrity

i never wanted an ordinary life. i wanted more. i hungered for more. the problem with more is that what i have, at any given moment, is never enough. a face reflected in a window. i thought it was ambition, striving to be better than common mediocrity. perhaps it's just snobbery. perhaps i think i am better than...but that's a lie. sitting under the living room fan listening to city and colour play in the background, i am hungry. not for food. for more. i feel it down to the bones in my jaw. an ache. a void so deep it makes me wince...it creates a sharp pain that reminds me that what i'm doing is not enough. heat does not mix well with bone-crushing disappointment in one self.

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Let It Matter - Johnnyswim

It's Thursday, right before a holiday weekend. I'm taking several days off from the day job. I'm in a weird mood. Anxious. Restless. Wanting...something. The sky outside is filled with heavy clouds and it looks like it will thunderstorm later today. Could that be it? Electric current in the air. Hmm. I feel on the verge of a full blown migraine. It's been over three weeks since my last migraine.  I think this is the longest I've gone without one in the past two years.
Let's see, it's been a week since I've sat down to work on my writing. Perhaps that's where the restlessness is coming from. My muse is calling me and I've been ignoring her for far too long. There are slivers of story ideas trying to make their way to the surface and I've been snoozing. The alarm clock keeps going off in the background and I am having a hard time waking up enough to allow those slivers onto a page. What a waste.


Jumping subjects...I've been listening to the duo Johnnyswim and their sound is quite beautiful. This video is an acoustic version of LET IT MATTER and I can't stop listening to it. Her voice is delicious with a soulful, bluesy flavor.  Enjoy~ L

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More Words

Quick hits....the last couple of weeks I've gone to see a few movies:

1. Alien:Covenant-This movie made me nostalgic for the original movies. As much as I love Michael Fassbender...the movie was just meh.  Sorely disappointing. Made me miss Sigourney Weaver in a big way.  May just rent the first Alien movie to remind me of why I love Space Alien movies. *sigh*
2. My Cousin Rachel-I love period movies and I was really looking forward to seeing this film adapted from Daphne Du Maurier's novel. After seeing the actual film, there was so much wrong with the story line that I spent twenty minutes breaking down all the flaws. Rachel Weisz was quite stark and beautiful in her acting so she made it a little better. But Sam Clafin as Philip was just unbearable.  
3. Wonder Woman- I was really looking forward to this movie and I will admit it's better than most of the DC franchise. However, I wanted MORE from the film. I wanted some depth and for me it just skimmed the surface. I know fans of this film really LOVE it, just wish I did too.
4. Guardians of the Galaxy v2 - It was okay.  Decent sequel. But at this point, I'm just over the summer blockbusters and they've barely begun.  Not a good sign at all.  

That's all I have for tonight.  

Peace,

L~

  

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