I admit, I fell off the grid for awhile. Been traveling a bit. Was also looking for a new gig since I have a stack of bills staring me down. Landed a temp gig down on Wall Street through my agency. The job is perfect. It's easy admin work and at the end of the day I can walk out of the building and not give the "work" another thought. Today I finished out my first full week so a full paycheck by next Friday will come in handy. I was told the gig is good until the end of August. I have the next three months to find something a bit more permanent but in this economy a steady paycheck is enough for now.
Where to start?
Moving: In 16 days, I move from my current apartment in the Bronx back to Brooklyn. Being out of work for two months left me needing to re-evaluate matters. I used up my piddly savings to pay for living expenses. So I'm moving back in with the folks temporarily while I get this whole job/money deal sorted out. Which is really kind of odd since they plan on selling their house in the next year or so. Guess I'll figure that out when it's time. Anyway, in the meantime I've been packing. I've got a stack of boxes, comprised mostly of books, against the dining room wall. It's strange to not have access to them. I know it will only be for a short time but I already miss the ability to grab a book at random just to read a passage. I've whittled down my library every time I've moved and I'm down to about 10 medium boxes. It's the object that I still spend money on acquiring. I keep sorting and re-sorting through papers and old journals and I keep wanting to chuck them but then my attachment to them stops me from doing it. Guess they go with me.
This whole transition time has me thinking about moving away from NYC to somewhere more remote. The problem with remote is lack of access to public transportation, 'cause altho' I have a driver's license, I really suck at the whole driving thing. The idea of having to take care of a car and insurance payments and gasoline and whatever else it might need just does not appeal to me at all. So I guess I'm choosing to stay in a more urban setting. At times, I wouldn't mind living a simpler existence. Have less stuff but I'm not sure I could live out of a backpack tho'. There are limits to my running away fantasies. I'm not much of a camper.
Movie: Wednesday night I went to see the movie: The East. It's another Brit Marling film altho' it was co-written with the director, Zal Batmanglij. I've been waiting for this one for awhile now. It's a decent flick but some of the storyline was problematic for me. Sometimes, the dialogue got caught up in it's own sanctimonious bullshit. I caught myself rolling my eyes a few times. HOWEVER, what's underlying the actual story is this call-to-action social activism that I really dig. I think Marling is still genius and I look forward to her next projects!!
Reading: While on vacation last week, I picked up the book Delirium by Lauren Oliver. It's a young adult science fiction novel. It's part of a trilogy: Delirium, Pandemonium & Requiem. "In Delirium, the government requires that all teenagers be cured of love, a.k.a. deliria, to keep society safe. But 95 days before her treatment, Lena Haloway falls in love--and must face the truth about her own feelings and the world in which she lives." The writing at times has a lyrical quality that really made me savor the story. Oliver really captured that angst that comes with budding love. I picked up her second book when I got back to the city and then downloaded the last novel onto my Nook. I have to say the first novel was the best one for me because of the depth of emotion I felt while reading it. The second one was compelling but the writing was uneven for me. I finished the third novel today and hmmm....some of the story was satisfying and some of it was not.
Writing: I haven't been writing at all. I've been trying to start a couple of new short stories but they won't come out. Unfortunately, Indigo is still my obsession but I haven't been working on it either. Which reminds me, I want to change the title...the title is starting to bug me. I can't stop thinking about the story itself and my characters. I just have to sit and write but I've been too active, too up-rooted, too social and doing everything else other than facing a revision of this novel. I've been drinking with friends and going to movies instead. Ergh. Despite the fact the novel still calls to me. I feel it constantly in the back of my brain, working, working out some of the problems. But I need to take pen to paper or sit in front of my laptop and just start pounding on the keys. I just need to get past my laziness and just take it one chapter at a time. I can just feel that it's going to be a HUGE undertaking and I'm just not ready.
Play: I went to see the play Relatively Speaking and I laughed so hard I could barely breathe. I was up in the balcony section but I actually think the actors heard my hysterics. I really love comedies based on misunderstandings and in this piece they were able to sustain the misunderstandings almost all the way through. I want to know the craft behind that piece...perhaps I will break it down one day and figure out how it works.
Publication: I was notified a couple of weeks ago that Applause Books is going to take a monologue from Glass Knives and publish it in Best American Monologues. How cool is that?!! When I find out publication date, I'll let folks know.
All righty, I think that's all I have for the moment. I've been sitting here for an hour trying to fill in all the blank spaces on this page.
Peace,
L~
P.S. Please forgive all typos and grammar problems. I've realized lately that when I am writing off-the-cuff...the words are coming out before my thoughts have even formed. It happens.
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Thursday, June 6, 2013
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Impromptu Mexico
I am back from my impromptu trip to Mexico City to visit family. It's been awhile since I last visited...almost 13 years. My grandmother, aunts, uncles and cousins treat me so well that I felt completely pampered. They live simple humble lives but there is also a deep abiding love for family. It was amazing. I spent time cooking, helping out in the workshop and catching up with my cousins. Most of my first cousins on my mother's side are married and have 2 or 3 kids. Most of my first cousins on my dad's side are single and have either one kid or no kids to speak of.
My grandmother is getting on in years and I think she is lonely living in her house by herself. Altho' my aunt and uncle live right next door, her worry is that she will slip and fall and no one will find her in time. It's a valid concern since she suffers from low blood pressure. She wondered if I would come and stay with her in Mexico. For a fleeting moment, I considered it. The problem is I have grad loans to pay off and trying to make a living to pay those loans off would be too difficult in Mexico's economy and the exchange rate being what it is, it just doesn't seem very feasible. Anyway, I told her that I would do my best to go back in December to visit and stay with her for a couple of weeks and then bring her back with me to stay with my parents during the holiday season. It's a tentative plan and we're putting a pin in it until I get my job situation sorted out.
My aunt and uncle have a workshop where they sew knapsacks. It's something they have done as long as I can remember. In fact some of my fondest memories is of helping them out whenever I went to visit when I was younger. Some of their daughters still work with them and I pitched in when I could this past week. I don't bother with the sewing though, they use industrial machines that quite frankly scare the crap out of me. When I was little I accidentally sewed one of my cousin's fingers. It was a terrible accident with lots of blood and screaming, his finger is crooked from they way the bone was snapped. Ergh. Should I state the obvious here and say that it's not the fondest memories I was writing about earlier. Ergh...feeling queasy.
The city itself was congested with both people and traffic, so much so that everything is covered in this gritty soot from the nasty smog. The few times we were traveling around the city the back of my throat burned from the acrid air. The only times it let up was after a good rain and then the wind would pick up and clear things up for a moment.
It's taken me a couple of days to readjust to the time change and the climate change. It was in the 80's in Mexico and I've come back to 60 degree weather. Tonight I was supposed to go see Halestorm in concert and I opted out. I can blame it on still being jet-lagged or something else but really my heart wasn't in it. I'm sure it was probably one I shouldn't have missed but I've buried myself under my duvet instead. Ostrich maneuver.
Last bit, I can't stop listening to Rihanna's song Stay ft. Mikky Ekko. I love Ekko's voice against Rihanna's. I kind of think I've mentioned this song before in a previous entry but either way here it is again. Enjoy!
All artwork, photos, and text © Copyright 2008-2013 Liliana Almendarez unless indicated otherwise. All Rights Reserved. Any downloading, copying or use of images on this website is strictly prohibited without express written consent by Liliana Almendarez.
My grandmother is getting on in years and I think she is lonely living in her house by herself. Altho' my aunt and uncle live right next door, her worry is that she will slip and fall and no one will find her in time. It's a valid concern since she suffers from low blood pressure. She wondered if I would come and stay with her in Mexico. For a fleeting moment, I considered it. The problem is I have grad loans to pay off and trying to make a living to pay those loans off would be too difficult in Mexico's economy and the exchange rate being what it is, it just doesn't seem very feasible. Anyway, I told her that I would do my best to go back in December to visit and stay with her for a couple of weeks and then bring her back with me to stay with my parents during the holiday season. It's a tentative plan and we're putting a pin in it until I get my job situation sorted out.
My aunt and uncle have a workshop where they sew knapsacks. It's something they have done as long as I can remember. In fact some of my fondest memories is of helping them out whenever I went to visit when I was younger. Some of their daughters still work with them and I pitched in when I could this past week. I don't bother with the sewing though, they use industrial machines that quite frankly scare the crap out of me. When I was little I accidentally sewed one of my cousin's fingers. It was a terrible accident with lots of blood and screaming, his finger is crooked from they way the bone was snapped. Ergh. Should I state the obvious here and say that it's not the fondest memories I was writing about earlier. Ergh...feeling queasy.
The city itself was congested with both people and traffic, so much so that everything is covered in this gritty soot from the nasty smog. The few times we were traveling around the city the back of my throat burned from the acrid air. The only times it let up was after a good rain and then the wind would pick up and clear things up for a moment.
It's taken me a couple of days to readjust to the time change and the climate change. It was in the 80's in Mexico and I've come back to 60 degree weather. Tonight I was supposed to go see Halestorm in concert and I opted out. I can blame it on still being jet-lagged or something else but really my heart wasn't in it. I'm sure it was probably one I shouldn't have missed but I've buried myself under my duvet instead. Ostrich maneuver.
Last bit, I can't stop listening to Rihanna's song Stay ft. Mikky Ekko. I love Ekko's voice against Rihanna's. I kind of think I've mentioned this song before in a previous entry but either way here it is again. Enjoy!
All artwork, photos, and text © Copyright 2008-2013 Liliana Almendarez unless indicated otherwise. All Rights Reserved. Any downloading, copying or use of images on this website is strictly prohibited without express written consent by Liliana Almendarez.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Impending Mayhem
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| Cancun, 2006 |
I haven't spent any time on the novel this week. The "not writing"is making me antsy. I've spent time journal writing but that doesn't seem to be quite enough.
Journal writing helps offset some of the stress of being out of work. It's a place where I can bitch and whine and get that angst out of my system. It helps me from acting out impulsively. It steadies me in the face of this new reality. So it does help somewhat. But it's up against that part of me that wants to be MORE productive. Notice the capital letters...the same emphasis happens in my head.
I've been reading books and articles on a new way of looking at the world economy and taking ecological factors into the equation. Finite resources are impacting the way we think of GROWTH in this world and there are some countries who are looking at a sustainable steady-state economics instead of a growth economy as a possibility. It's A LOT of new information and I'm trying to take it in and process it but I have to write it out. I want to use this new information for my next novel but how I'm going to integrate it into fiction...I'm not quite sure just yet. Makes my stomach churn with nervous energy. Perhaps that's what I'll start working on while I'm down in Mexico. Just hash it out in some free-write exercises to see what comes up and out onto the page. Oooo now I'm excited.
Anyway, I've been working at eating better and exercising more. The healthy diet is coming along. I've lost a couple of more lbs. Yay! The exercising is still a bit rockier for me. I just have an unbearable block about it. I'll be good for a series of classes and then I quit. No rhyme or reason...just quit. Ergh! It's a bit annoying.
Let's see tomorrow I'm going to be baby-sitting my nieces for the weekend. Heaven help me!! I have a 5 year old and a 7 year old to entertain for two days. Eeeek!! Hehehe. I'm sure it will be fine. I've just finished picking up foods and snacks for them. I also picked up a slew of markers and drawing paper so we can have some creativity time. I keep having to remind myself that I need to pick up more children's books because they like a good story time. Perhaps I need to go relish the quiet apartment because tomorrow it will be mayhem.
Peace,
L~
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