I am in a mood today. Not sure where it's coming from or what's bothering me at the moment, but I'm in a bit of a snit. The thing is I don't have anything to complain about at the moment. I've addressed some issues that have popped up (for a change, instead of letting them fester), I've reached out to friends for support and advise (check), cooked healthy foods for myself (check), taken walks to clear my head (check). So where is the funky stink mood coming from? Ergh!!
I've tried some retail therapy but that hasn't work out lately. I've bought three pairs of shoes in the last three months only to return them as soon as I get them home. My flat Sasquash feet don't fit into anything pretty. And since I'm not 20 anymore...wearing dr. marten's with dresses just doesn't look right. *sigh*
I've lost 16 lbs up until last week and today I'm back up 3 lbs...*frustrating* My sister says she can see the weight loss...unfortunately, I don't. * grumble, grumble *
I have an idea for another story about desire and obsession. Last night, I sat down at my desk to quickly sketch out the story. It was just to get down the overall idea. But somewhere between sketching out the idea, my direction changed and I was trying to block out the story and the writing was just terrible. Big clunky phrasing that reminded me of undergraduate work. I balled everything up and threw it out. I'll have to go back tonight and fish it out of the wastepaper basket...in hopes of salvaging the idea itself. I'm frustrated with writing lately. It's like holding a finger down on a bruise. It hurts but I can't help but do it, write, that is. I know there are hills and valleys to my process...just sometimes wish there were more peaks than troughs. Maybe that is where the mood is coming from...wanting the writing to be better than what it is currently.
On the bright side, today is Friday. I'm having dinner with my sister and her boyfriend at one of our favorite Korean restaurants. Yummy Kimchi and Dolsot BiBamBop, can't wait. I think I'll walk around Bryant Park a couple of times during my lunch break to help with the funky mood. It's a warm, bright day...I may as well take it in before winter sets in.
I'm not in the mood to work (day job) today. Instead, I just want to pile everything up in the corner of my desk and try my hand at that story again. See if I can piece together the impulse with the act of writing. Wish me luck.
All for now,
L~
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Friday, September 14, 2012
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The good news is that if you are in the trough now, then you will soon be rising up the crest. There is no easy coasting, and sometimes we just deserve being in a crummy mood for no particular reason. It doesn't mean we did something wrong, in fact it might mean we are doing something good, because you have reached the down swing and stirred up the muck that settled at the bottom and need to be swept away with the next uprise. It feels sucky, but it is actually a good thing.
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