Missing in Action...

I know I’ve been M.I.A. for the past week. I’ve been busy mostly with outside projects and family obligations. And this month doesn’t seem to be letting up. I’m a bit done at the moment and I’m finding it difficult to put much into words. I’ve been struggling with something.

Since my break through (with the writing) a couple of weeks ago, I’ve spent very little time working on my novel. It’s a shame really but I have a nasty habit of biting off more than I can chew by taking on other people’s pet projects in lieu of working on my own. It came to head for me on Sunday when I was taking on yet one more project and I realized that the time commitment would stretch me too thin. As I sat in on a meeting and asked for some clarifications…it became apparent that I didn’t have the inner resources to take on one more outside project.

In the past, I would have sucked it up, kept my head down and worked through despite feeling stressed out over the final product. These days, I just don’t want to give over this time so easily. How many times have I complained on this very blog about how little time I had…it just didn’t make sense to add one more thing to my plate. It was a hard decision because I had agreed to take it on. I have a hard time letting other people down. T reminded me that it’s too easy to let myself down than to let others down and that I’ve got it pretty twisted. He talked me off the ledge and once I sent the e-mail out, I went back to work on my novel.

So I’ve added another 1,000 words (approximately 6 more pages) to the paper pile. I’m pushing myself to complete this chapter before my writing group meeting on Thursday. I’ll go home tonight and work on it. Let’s see how long I last. I have the actual chapter written out but I’m working through revising to include the new technology information. Even as I write these words my eyes are closing from too many nights of tossing and turning. I’m ready to crash. Perhaps I can power nap on the train, on the way up to my apartment. Sounds like a plan.

Peace,

L~

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